I have hit my 40 week mark! Baby apparently did not get the memo that she was to arrive today. So, we play the waiting game. When I went to the doctor, she let me know that I am not dilated and the baby has not dropped. Good news is, my cervix is soft. Maybe the date smoothies are working!
This is usually the time where woman are wanting this baby out! They are uncomfortable, sick of being pregnant, excited for the baby. I am all of these things. I can’t sleep at night, (I’m currently writing this at 4 am), my heartburn is unbearable at times, I feel big as a house, and I really don’t want my baby to share her birthday with Christmas. So yes, I am ready.
However, as I said in my previous post, I do not want to be induced. And honestly, I feel this calm has come over me. If baby is happy inside of my belly still, then let her be. As long as I still have enough fluid, the baby will be fine to stay in belly. And according to my doctor;
“You have a ton of fluid. You will DEFINITELY know when your water breaks.”
My doctor also said that everything looks good, that I have had a pretty easy pregnancy, and as long as I continue like this, she may let me go up to 2 weeks overdue. Which is great because the chances of being induced, are less. Typically, doctors want to induce you after 1 week or even earlier.
Buuuuut, (my only but), that could result in a Christmas baby. This I am not super stoked about. I know it sounds silly, but that’s really the only thing that is making me feel rushed. For the rest of her life there will always be a few people, that either joint gifts her, or wraps her present in red and green paper, or can’t come to her birthday celebration. I want her birthday to be hers.
With that being said, I really do feel calm about the whole situation. I was talking to a woman in yoga last week who voiced her fear and concern about labor. I realized I don’t have that same fear. I remember saying to her, “I don’t really think about it. I mean, it’s happening no matter what, so why stress?”. I’m not sure she liked that response, but that is how I feel. At the end of class, we went into a light meditation, and I started to picture my labor. There I was screaming in pain. I remember I looked at my mom and said, “I don’t think I can do this”, and then they placed my baby on my chest. Tears started running down my face (in real life, yes I cried in yoga). I left that class with this tremendous feeling of joy and calm.
I understand why labor is scary. There were definitely points in my pregnancy where I avoided thinking about it, and when I did I would freak out. But it’s weird. All of the sudden, I just don’t feel that way anymore. I am ready, and excited, and not feeling rushed. When baby is ready she will let me know. Until then, I continue to prepare for the hospital. I have let everyone close to me know that it could be any day now. But, I continue my days as normal. Running errands, making plans with friends, but also keeping in mind that my water may break while out. Maybe not attend a White Party….
So baby, don’t feel rushed to come out. But know when you do, you will have a lot more room to spread out those arms and legs, and that you have family waiting to smother you with love. Take all of the time you need. We will be patiently waiting your arrival.